Why I Can't Spell

I know that when some people come to this blog they cringe a little because of the my grammar and spelling. And the reason for it is that I just barely got through school. And there are a couple of reasons, I have thought about over the years,about why this is. And I don't know if this is why or if I may be a moron, who knows.

My first memory of school was in southern New Jersey, I'm talking kindergarten, first grade and part of second grade. These years as far as I can remember seemed to me, at the time, normal. I felt that I was as smart or smarter than my classmates. Learner was fun and easy for me at the time. But right in the middle second grade my father got a job offer in northern New Jersey and we picked up and moved. And this is were it all seemed to fall apart for me.

The first day in my new school started out very emotional. My mother dropped me off and as she pulled away I just started to cry and cry right there on the front steps of school number 15 untill my teacher lead me into my classroom. The first thing that I noticed was that my new classmates were ahead of were my class in south Jersey was. I can't remember the exact reason I just felt lost. Maybe they were playing with rectangle blocks and I had only experienced square ones at the time, who knows. But I was lost and I was the only one who recognize it. Not my teacher nor my parents had a clue.

This continued all through grammar school, junior high school and high school. It was just barely getting by every year. My report card was mostly red, as they use to mark the failing grades in red. The only passing marks for me was usually in art and gym class.

I know that a lot of people think that ADD is not a valid diagnosis, but believe me I've got it. I recognize it now, but for years it was the way I rolled, as you kids say today. It always starts out the same way, I am paying attention to something that really interest me and then, "Squirrel" I am off thinking about something other than what I was listening to. I recognize this in myself now, and make a real effort to focus.

So this was going on all through my learning years, just not having the ability paying attention to what was being taught. And there were many people in my life that should have been paying attention to your pal and were not. My teachers, my parents who had know clue and mostly me who should have been yelling at the top of my lungs "Something is wrong here, HELP!"

I look back now and it makes me mad that I missed so much. I have been trying to take in everythng I can and learn about everything that I can. So forgive my spelling and grammar and remember "Knowlege is power."